Friday, July 27, 2007

Please don't call CPS

Do you ever get those moments during the day when you feel like you are on sensory overload? I was just holding James while he was whaling, and Hannah kept talking incessantly. The tv was on, and I was trying to read something. I just wanted to press the pause button for pretty much everything. Turning off the tv never felt like such a relief.

And this is totally embarassing to admit but during my prayers this morning, I actually bopped Hannah on the head. Not hard or anything. But here I am praying and she's playing with the clasp on a box we keep our prayer books and such. She keeps doing it over and over. It's so distracting. I tell her to please stop but then she moves on to a water bottle and its cap that she takes off and on and off and on, nothing registers in my head but to make it stop. I get this knee jerk reaction and my hand goes, "Bop." Like on that game, Bop It! Right on her head. During prayers. Nice. She turned around and said, "hey!" Like what the heck are you doing?

Do you know how lame it is to be praying, asking God for mercy, asking Him, something I ask every morning, for gentleness as a mother and then do something like that? Pray for me.

To make me feel even more inadequate, Hannah has just entered a very inquisitive period. She's gone from the "Wass iss this?" stage to the "Why? Why? Why?" stage. As her mother, I haven't adjusted yet. These are the days, I feel like I need parenting lessons. Any pointers?


Blogger Mimi said...

Oh, yes, I've had those moments during Liturgy. Arrrrrrrrrrrg.

You are a great mom, know that.

5:40 PM  
Blogger Xenia Kathryn said...

Parenting lessons? Sign me up!

Today was rough on me too. Lord have mercy. At least you did your prayer rule, which I forgot...!

12:05 AM  
Blogger Bluecanopy said...

I hear you on that's so comforting to know we're all in the same boat.

at times like those, just remember there are thousands of moms JUST like you...struggling for the same gentleness. I'm one of 'em too.

although we are not perfect by any means, maybe our imperfections can glorify God too when our kids hear our apologies and see us trying...

you're an extremely patient and loving mom...and i really mean that. your children are blessed.

11:10 AM  
Blogger Lauren S. said...

Thank you. Thus goes the saying, "I was a much better parent before I had children." Sometimes I surprise myself at how much I don't know, but thought I did. :)

Sara, you are so sweet. And from you, that is such a nice complement because I think you are a wonderful mother - I've seen you in action.

1:59 PM  
Blogger Mom said...

Ha Ha pay back. You did the same thing. I use to give you very sound logical, scientific, and thoughtful answers. Still you would ask why. Soon I just would give you a 4 word answer(because I SAID SO) and you would say OK. Moral of the story keep is simple and short.

7:20 PM  

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